Xx tAkE a RaZoR aNd SiGn My WrIsT .. sO eVeRyOnE wIlL kNo YoU lEfT mE LiKe tHiS xX

stabs to the heart and only bouquets of flowers waiting beside the hospital bed...thanx...



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In the Now {updated on 8/02}
wearing: jeans and white tanktop.
feeling: bored.
hearing: "No More Mr. Nice Guy" - Alice Cooper.
wishing: summer would last forever.

robin. 15 years. H-town bound. five foot somethin. part time girlygirl. full time partier. outspoken. lovable. slacker. odd thinker. loves. music. poptarts. icecream. my girls. rain. thunderstorms. laughing. guys. eyeliner. summer. msn. blue eyes. photography. concerts. bunnies. blue. koolaid. stars. hot topic. pink&black. hanging out with the girls. and the guys. hates. feet. liars. fakes. copiers. conceited people. mascots. mosquito bites. trailor parks. sun burn. feeling fat. family time. pms. sandwhiches. stereotypes. clowns. crying. status. single. <3.

this might just be a waste of time
but there's noone i'd rather waste my time with than all of my best friends.
so start the car up, we're all "hasbeens" and "never-weres",
and we're all in the back singing "Roxanne" just watching life pass us by:
as if we cared enough to try and catch up, enough to make up for lost time.
we've been down. we've been out. we've been hanging around. tip our glasses to having no direction.
so start the van, get me out of this one horse town, lets waste this night.

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Wednesday, August 18, 2004

What else should I be?

what else should i be?
~~all apologies~~.
what else should i say?
e v e r y o n e i s g a y .
what else should i write?
i dont have the right.
what else should i be?
~~ALL APOLOGIES.~~

omg ppl its already august ... AUGUST 2^nd!! the summers going by too fast :( well nothing new's happened around here. i wanted to go to warped tour on the 14^th with kim but... i have to go camping with my mom. which will still be fun but not AS fun. ooh ya i made the new web design a while ago. I LOVE it. its so purtyful! oh ya i had to watch the neighbours two cats for a week. :S my dad said i had to do it. :( but the cats were really cute so it wasnt that bad which is totally against the point that i HAD to. oh well anyways i got 30 bucks for doing it...

So i found out that this guy (and i dont fucking care if you ARE reading this cuz im not saying real names but im still gonna say it) likes one of my other best friends. BUT hes liked a whole bunch of ppl before that and apparently hes liked her the whole time and "whenever he liked anyone else he was always thinking of her" Corny but meh thats what i heard from a semi-reliable source. anyways im sorry dude but u cant get all pathetic when a girl doesnt like you. ok a lot of guys i kno have done this but whenever a girl didnt like them they would find another person to like almost immediatly. like PPL what is wrong with you. OBVIOUSLY you didnt like them that much if your just gonna give up like that! maybe not in this case, but maybe not all ppl are into that love at first site or blind date kinda thing.. maybe they actually wanna get to kno you first. who knos maybe after you get to kno them better they will start liking you too. highly unlikely but still a chance. and if you do give up ur gonna beat ur self up wondering wut could have happened had you waited before giving up.

Also i would like to say that i think (my opinion) you should only really like one person at a time or else it isnt <3 "love" should be your whole heart.. if they dont have your whole heart then it isnt meant to be or at least not at the time. you can try but it wont work. so "dude" if u didnt fucking like the other ppl that you said u liked. why did u fucking say it! i dont mean to sound rude and i kno im probably gonna hear about this when "someone" reads this but the point is maybe she did like you and she was just saying it at the time cuz she didnt realize it but then you didnt really like her :S like wtf. she probably didnt but thats against the point if you dont really like the person then dont say it because they might just believe you. and dont think im taking this out on u its just thats one of my little ticks with guys. k i kno i shouldnt be complaining about this cuz its not of my business (hint hint i dont really care that you liked her all that time cuz hint hint i didnt really like you anyways!!!!) ok that was mean but meh everyone knos it anyways.

*Note to Self - Complaining DOES NOT make things better

anyways i dont like nickleback or w.e his name is but my dad downloaded the song someday .. i think its called that but anyways so he told me to watch the video and see if i could find the meaning in the pointless video... it wasnt very pointless! the guy in it (not the singer the actor) was fucking hott!! lol well i think he was his names like Clint Carleton or something like that.. dont do a google on him cuz i already checked for pics lol there were none :(

So uhm kim is gone till friday i think :( she went up to her cottage. I LOVE YOU KIM! I MISS YOU ALREADY! lol shes been gone one day :P btw we always say we love each other its our thing :P kim is awesome! she likes wrestling which i dont like but she makes me watch it with her. the whole "sexy very muscular guys in nut huggers" thing is very...uhm nice lol but not natural! ..its funny and very nice to look at lol but very wrong. anyways back to kim ..she has awesome taste in music! and she is oneday gonna be a wrestler or :o kim u should be a guitarist!! lol uhm or no but it would be fun. kim is very good at the geetar and shes teaching me! anyways ya ive known her since like grade 2 i think ..when i moved to hamilton. and shes awesome! lol im sayin it again

oh well i dont have anything else to say so im gonna stop blogging. i love this blogging thing its so addicting!

robin

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Tuesday, August 10, 2004

just a little quiz thing

Bold the ones that apply to you.
Underline the ones that really apply to you.

01. I've known my best friend for more than 3 years
02. I still watch cartoons
03. I've never seen The O.C.
04. I love almost all music.
06. I want a tattoo.
07. I wear glasses.
08. But mostly to read the blackboard.
09. I want more piercings.
10. but i can't ever get any more :(
11. I love to watch the rain.
12. I like to walk in the dark at night with someone special and talk.
13. I didn't believe in true love when i was younger.
14. I am a pretty cynical person sometimes.
15. Sometimes I cry for no damn reason.
16. I cry about stupid things.
17. I hate being walked all over and treated like crap.
18. It annoys me when people try to tell me how I am, and what I like.
19. I love music.
20. I am not sure if I believe in God. But i think i believe in a higher power.
21. I often feel alone.
22. I'm a ~~sometimes~~ loud and funny person.
23. A boy in high school shattered my heart into a million pieces.
24. I get depressed sometimes.
25. I hate it when people critisize me for what I like.
26. I crack my knuckles, wrists, ankles, back, etc.
27. I fidgit with anything when I'm nervous.
28. I'm a weird person.
29. I consider myself pretty unique.
30. My eyes are brown.
31. Listening to music usually helps my mood.
32. I am sometimes a disappointment to myself.
33. I love sleeping
34. I'm obsessed with Vanilla.
35. I have a lot of close friends.
36. Okay, i have like 2 friends.
37. I need to lose weight.
38. I like popcorn.
39. I love watching tv.
40. I like malls.
41. I like cold weather better than hot.
42. I really dig Depeche Mode
43. I love Winter.
44. I'm addicted to MSN.
45. I have trouble trusting people.
46. I do not label myself anything besides "me."
47. I love my family. they're the only ones i got.
48. I loathe hot weather.
50. I hate shaving my legs.
51. Sleeping is a hobby of mine.
52. I like to listen to music everyday.
53. I love white tigers.
54. I love dancing.
55. I don't always like the way I look.
56. I used to cut myself.
57. I'm a daydreamer.
58. I feel lucky i met the right guy.
59. I like when my friends write me letters, it makes me feel special.
60. I randomly doodle on pieces of paper or myself when boredom strikes.
61. I love all my LJ, DJ, and GJ friends. <---WHAT?
62. I'm allergic to milk.
63. I wish people would stop making me cry over their stupidity.
64. I hate people who try to be what they're not.
65. I went to boarding school for the last 2 years of high school
66. I love all candy, well, most.
67. I get my feelings hurt really easy.
68. I believe inner beauty is more important than outer beauty.
69. I wear pants a lot.
70. I wish I had more money.
71. I like to say what's on my mind. <-- sometimes
72. I hate blue jeans
73. I'm online a lot.
74. I have 2 goldfish
75. I am for the most part happy with myself.
76. I need to work out more.
77. I like being alone at certain times.
78. When I get angry, I curse to myself sometimes.
79. I wish I could spend more money on friends/family.
80. I hate shallow people.
81. I'm a type 1 (insulin dependent) diabetic.
82. I ponder life way too much.
83. Sometimes I think everyone hates me.
84. I wish my brother didn't die.
85. I hate it when girls have their thongs sticking really far out of the back of their pants.
86. I need to be showed I'm loved.
87. I wish I was better.
88. I hate discrimination.
89. I hate guys who are only out for one thing.
90. I have a cute car
91. I love glitter
92. I sometimes wish i was more social.
93. I love my close friends.
94.I love to have fun.
95. I get amused so easily.
96. I'm a lazy ass. I really am.
97. I'm usually more outgoing when I'm around friends.
98. I love to be me.
99. I like wearing hoodies.
100. I'm graduating highschool in June!

robin

Posted at 10:35 am by xfromxinsidex
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Friday, August 06, 2004

UGH sooo bored

in storybooks children grow up to become leaders.
innocence leads our young to fall victim to the disadvantages our parents brought before them.
grow up fast and lose sight of becoming an influence.
and ill never sleep, ill never sleep again
they stole our innocense, you b r o k e our foundation.
broken by production, released at ten.
after birth the hand that feeds may bleed.
legos build the outcome, whether its mental or physical,
^beforeyou_killyour^idols,kiss_themgoodnight.

on friday i went to the mall and got my new mp3 player. woohoo. i tried to figure out how to work it and i ...think i figured it out lol wow am i slow or wut.

While we were walking around and shopping, I came to this huge realization. I think there are very few people who think for themselves these days. I was looking at some new shoes and over heard some girls talking about what shoes they should get. "Well, I think I'm gonna get a pair of converse because, like, Ashlee Simpson was wearing them and they were totally hot." and then the other girl was like "Yea! Me too! I think I'm going to get my hair cut like hers too. That look seems to be really in right now." THEN I was trying on pants and the girl next to my room was trying on baggy pants. She came out of the dressing room and was like "Oh, I don't really like how these look." but her friend said "They make you look exactly like Avril Lavigne!" and she replied "Well, in that case I'm getting them."

What the fuck people? What the fuck. Why can't society make their own decisions, whether it be what kind of clothes you wear or whatever, based on what they want and not base them around a celebrity, what they read in a teenie bopper magazine, or what is currently considered to be "in".

I was telling my friend over msn about wut they said. He told me that I was too opinionated. Well, fuck you too! :S lol From now on, I will not worry about society and what it is doing to the minds of our children. From now on, I'll sit back and watch my generation deteriorate into $10 whores, anorexics, and wannabe rappers cuz that is what message the media is giving: "Pimp them hoes!" "You don't look good until you can squeeze yourself into size 0!" The future, as of now, doesn't look too bright to me. We are all just slaves to corporate America.

UGH!! anyways i just had to say that cuz thats one of those many "ticks" that i find annoying.

robin

Posted at 10:38 am by xfromxinsidex
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Monday, August 02, 2004

Amy Lee ~ Shes SO pretty

robin

Posted at 06:25 pm by xfromxinsidex
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